Cliques are Bad!!

I hate cliques!!!
And i never have one in my life...
Can't understand why??
Well, the main problem is that they are just a bunch of exclusive people who are only talking among themselves and no to anyone else. But the worst thing, If you wanna join a clique or a group, you should conform to their believes or you could get kicked out and they will kiss your ass goodbye!!!

I have many bad experiences with them and I hate people who loves to clique...T Ihey are simply unfriendly and I can't tolerate this kind of behaviour... Yes!! I am sometime bullied with the same group of people whenI was young.. and yes!! I hate it!! That cold be the reason why I feel like quitting INDOSS cuz simply they are ran by an unknowingly bunch of clique which dominates everything and leaves no room for discussion among other members..

In fact, I hve loads of good friends and they never clique... In fact, all my very good friends are never good friends wih each other... Thats how Cliqueless I am!!!

Whats Wrong With ME!!!

My life have not been good these days. In reviewing myself for the past few months, I have been doing alot of useless things on the internet which practically didn't change my life at all. I just dn't know how to have a headstart for my studies. It may sound ridiculous to you guys but i am still on a holiday mood for the past few months. How Lazy I am, Can you guys imagine that!!

Not the typical UWA student, studying used to be pastime but now is a heavy blunder for me. I just hate studying these days, but who doesnt anyway, at least you guys still do abot of revision but i have not beeen doing so since the start of the semester and my studies are falling behind. Especially now when all my projects are piling up like mad!! I was so infuriated by that and that bloody EBS where i have to hand it work every week. Come on, can you make my life easier!! But people will always say, Life is hard!!! thats the only thing that people can say but thats fact. whats more irritating is that it is the only thing that they can say... hihi.. sounds bad...

Look, I have 2 essays to hand in top weeks time, its really driving me mad!! Please God!!! Can you don't let me go down like this. Please eliminate all the lack of discipline and indifference that i currently have. I am suffering from those diseases now. By the way, i feel much better after saying this and GOD!! Please help me pass my EBS!!

For all i know, since I am able to take the unites that I like... I would be able to do much better next year!! and yoohoo... My goal for next year... NO MORE MATH!!! Thats my goal.. And God, Thanks for the miracle that you gave me by giving my Accounting unit a pass... but please God!!

OK!! Now, i don't have to be proud of being the lazy asshole again.. From now on, i am going to work hard in everything I do.. Here's my plan for next week. One hour of EBS everyday, One Chapter of management everyday, Two Chapter of Macros everyday, finish evry tute questions and attend consultations for ITL!!!

thats it... My vision of success came back again and would like to thank God for that... By the way, My blog is always my best friend in this earth... But God is my best friend in both the earth and the terrestrial world...

Judging a Strange Person...

There's a girl in a church that people are always making fun of. I do have to admit that she is really strange and she got bullied quite badly by the members. She loves to do strange stuff like dancing randomly in front of everyone and too confident with guys which annoys people significantly. I am not here to insult or judge anyone but to let people understand why people can become so strange.


The reason why I am not as judgemental like everyone else because i used to be a very odd boy in the past especially when I was in Indonesia. At that point of time, I was very stressed out becauuse of new environmet and things like that. Not many people like me because i actually have a bad attitude problem when i was studying in Jakarta. I slammed the door loudly for nothing without showing any expression of anger and I clenched my teeth in the middle of a class. I was indeed a strange person with very strange habits and people really hate me for that. Then, i tried to act like a bloody fag which caused the guys not to go near me. I am also not conforming to the culture and wishes of my friends, so i was very isolated at that point of time and kept very quiet all the time.

But the main point is, many people think that I am strange while I think of it as perfectly normal and being myself. It is just a different perception of an attitude. Sometimes, I hate myself for being that way. It takes time for peole to realise that there is smething wrong with the behaviour. For example, it was only until recently that i suddenly stop banging the door in class without realising it. People will stop doing strange things when they are more mature. So, I do believe that the girl from the church could change ne day. So, Its really important for us not to judge them but instead to let them discover their mistakes as the more people make fun of them , the more mistakes they would make due to the negative inputs that they get.

Negative inputs or remarks would not change people, instead it would destroy them even more. So please stop tesing people who are strange. I know how it feels like to be one, it really hurts, its just that you don't realise it.

My Confession

Alot of people don't believe in love in first sight... Despite of what people say about it, I am a strong believer in it... They say that love needs a very long and arduous process of continuous selection and communication... Well, enough of what people think about it... Let me tell you my point of view... Yeah, first impression is the most lasting impression...

Theres this cute gal from Uniprep, my foundation school in Jakarta, when i saw her the first time, I suddenly fell in love with her...I am not sure why?? I am in the april intake but she is in the June intake, we are not in the same class... ='( Lets call her by the initial, M. You may not argue that it is just a crush... But if it is merely a crush, i won't be thinking of her until now... It has been months since the last time i saw... I really miss her alot... Seriously... The only thing that I want is to see her again...

I always wanna get to know her better... Whenever, I got the opportunity to do so, I was trembling so hard that i could barely talk especially when she was with her friends... I was so afraid that the smartest thing (actually its stupid) to do is to ignore her and only say hi to her when she is alone... Furthermore, theres a guy who is trying really hard to get to close with her and but they r just too shy to say the truth... hahaha... So, i back off and stay out of their way...

But I can feel theres this strange feeling... I really think that she likes me... I dunno is she still likes me now... It just feels different when i see her... i dunno why??

I am not sure whether I will have the chance to meet her to say I LOVE U... Only time will tell... I really wanna make her the luckiest woman in Indonesia, thats my dream.... I really thank God that i am able to track her friendster account and MSN... At least i still have a bit of chance to do so... If I succeed, i will be the luckiest man of earth and never to regret again for my decision to study in Jakarta for a year...

If you know who u r...

I wanna say

I LOVE U!!!!

Spending my birthday....

I was quite in a dilemma on where to spend my birthday... There are two choices that i have... Having a gathering n the city with most of my friends or inside the church camp in Yanchep...It was actually a tough decision to consider... In fact, it took me weeks to think about it...

But in the end, I chose to go to Yanchep instead... Cuz, I am in a dire need to get out of the Perth metropolitan area... I need to go somewhere totally different and far from the city... Basically to find the real Australia that i have been looking for all my life... Besides, there are only one sermon in the camp which is a good thing for me... hihi.... The games have loads of games and we practically go there just to have fun... I saw some of the pictures and it looks really nice... and yeah... theres a beach there...yahoo!!! I can swim and enjoy the natural surroundings...

TIME TO GET WET!!!

Or should i smuggle some beer for me to get pissed!!! hihihihi
cuz there willl definitely be no beer provided...
hahahahaha...
juz kidding...

Can we blame God!!!

I recently lost my bike and it gave me a big blow on my head... I cried to my mom when i told her that i lad lost my bike... I am tempted to think that God is the one to blame?? But when I looked back, wait a minute, it couldnt be God!!

Despite our tendecy to say : JESUS CHRIST!!!

It is not a very sensible word to say as how could God do evil things... its totally illogical to me... Remember, God is the God of love, protection and he is against evil vices such as stealing.... No matter what excuses you gave... that couldn't be God... There's simply no way that he could do such things... thats totally ridiculous and impossible!!!

the holy spirit didn't move people to do evil things such as stealing or murdering... Instead, with the holy spirit in you... You are able to do many great things that many peope can't... For example, serving the lord and helping other people...

its not right... Its actually the devil's attempt so that you could doubt God by telling you that its is God's fault after he actually caused you those misfortunes... He hates you and wants you to get you into trouble and most importantly to get you out of God's way and his directions...

So, its not God who caused you misfortunes... thus, we should never condemn god by using his name in vain... i just hope that this will be a blessing to you to help you understand that blaming God is simply not right in a logical manner... God Bless You!!!

Stefan