More money comes with great responsibility!!

I am now extremely broke and my spending level is just not sustainable with very few money left for acceptable dining. I was wondering why I was so broke and what is wrong with me. When I was in Singapore with $200 pocket money every week. I have the money to eat good food every week yet I have all the money for tithes and even building fund for the church. I feel that having that much money is enough to sustain me for the whole month.

Sometimes, I am extremely amazed of me spending control when I was in secondary school. Now, I got far more money than that and yet I feel poor. There are just too much to spend and yet it never feels enough. The 1st important thing that I learned today is more money comes with greater responsibility. If you have more money, It doesn't actually mean that you are richer. I befriended a man on a street complaining about the money given by the government for the homeless people. I asked him how much each of the got and he told me they got $600 each. Wow!! thats a lot of money for the average Indonesian but it is simply not enough for the homeless people to live in Australia.

I was lucky enough to have an increase in allowances at the end of this year. If people ever ask me how much it improved my life. I could say to them that it is the same as ever before. As I said earlier, this general rule seems to apply to everyone. It could be God's plan to flatten the income distribution or our own negligence with money, I am not sure which one is right. Most probably the second one is right. The rule is that more money comes with greater responsibility. With more money, more reasons to spend money naturally and MAGICALLY comes to you and there are much more temptations. It is your ability to resist the temptations and power to say 'NO' that makes the big difference. With more money, people have the tendency to spend more freely without much thoughts.

For example, you have heard stories of people winning millions from lottery and ended up more broke as every before. They even said that winning the lottery is the worst thing that could happen to them. Perhaps the best way to control lottery winnings is to try keeping it unknown and keep a normal yet sustainable life. This could be the exact reason why I am so broke. This is a hearthbreaking lesson that I learned so far not to take my money for granted and wish that you, my friends, do not make the same mistake as me again..

Dear Dairy..

Dear Dairy.. You are my best friend.. But I havent been talking to you for such a long time... This is the most 'confused' part of my life.. I don't know what to do?

Now, I havce to juggle between looking for a house, uni and work.. Its really shit actually.. Especially having to work on monday night which is a public holiday and don't get extra pay for it.. I hate public holidays!! I always do...

My friend do tell me to quit my job, but i was thinking, is it ethical for me to quit my job just after 2 weeks.. Well, Despite the low pay, I have to discipline myself this time to break that precedent.. My last job lasted only 2 weeks.. Got fired after that.. FUCK!!

I don't want to quit my job after 2 weeks again.. Its not really a good sign.. The Problem is that I am a very superstitious person.. I don't want something to become a habit and create a precedent.. Maybe I don't agree with some of the company's policy.. But I have to stick to the status quo.. Maybe I quit after my summer holidays.. I don't know!!!!

I learned alot of things from work though.. Like time management and costumer service.. I think its quite useful for my life and my future work life.. I take it as my training for the future.. Everyone did their training first in the hotel anyway (For hospitality students) and just take it as just like that.. These 'hospitality ' students don't even get paid for their jobs.. Perhaps I shouldnt complain abou my low pay...

For Uni, ARRGHH!!! Why is it so hard to find good books and resources for my report.. Useless finding them though.. I don't know what to do now.. God!! Please help me in this matter!!!

For the house, I am still deciding which one to choose.. Either a cheaper 418 apartment with more noise but cheaper or 811 which is quieter but much more expensive.. Its quite a tough decision.. Especially when both apartments looks grand and appetising to my eyes.. In comparison with my old house...

Well, thats it for my blog.. Dairy.. Thanks for listening to my story... Byezzz

My Dearest Stefan

Dear Stefan,

Can you get serious over your work!!
You should know it by now that you are so busy!!
Heaps of assignments and Spring Feast on Thursday!!
But look at what you are doing now!!
writing this blog and pracically destroting yourself!!
Can you be more serious over your work!!!
Can you do yourself that favour!!
Maybe, you need some 'puffies' outside before working again...
But Whatever!!
'Puffies' don't help you in the Long term
All you have to depend on is self-motivation..
You promised yourself that you wanna take honours!!
but wheres the action!!
Now, get going and do you work!!
Stefan, I know that you are capable of doing this!!
You are smart, you know it yourself!!
NOW GO!!!!

Yours sincerely,
Myself

Truth and misconceptions

There are many truth and misconceptions of clubbing which many people are not aware of...

Misconecptions:

1) People go there to pick up gals and bringig them back home.. Pick up gals.. Nah.. Not everyone do this kind of stuff (including me).. it is only the superconfident and raunchy individuals who would do such a thing!! It is not that easy folks!! The image of clubbers has been tarnished by the press and media so be aware of this misconcepton as the majority of them are not like this..

2) It is a happy place.. People go there to look for happiness and and they feel really empty inside.. This could be explained by the number of fights and drugs inside these places...

3) If I go there.. I will become soo addicted.. Not everyone likes loud music and chaotic places...

4) Going there means being exposed to drugs and alcohol.. Drugs and alohol consumption depend on peer pressure, not because of clubs!!


Truth

1) People go there because of peer pressure!! You won't go there yourself unless you are extremely depressed!!

2) It is dangerous!!! Yes it is dangerous!! Look at my last blog...

3) It affects your image and spirituality.. The minority of people still have the old notion that going to clubs are bad (like picking up gals) and may not like you for doing so..

4) You won't be affcted by drugs and alcohol unless you friends are doing so..

Remember:

1) Do whatever you like but don't break the laws!!

Dodgy Night in Melbourne

Just back from holiday...

Geez... i am really exhausted...

Spending my birthday in Melbourne is really cool.. The nightlife is fantastic and the casino is just like Las vegas (Never been there before). However, its rather rough though. I went to this dodgy club in South Melbourne with my friends and the bouncers were really rough!!! geez!! It was pretty crowded though.

We went out to the Casino (Lost $40, DAMN!!!) for awhile and got my hand stamped. When we went back inside, they couldn;t see the stampt and I was thrown out of the club violently. I showed my stampt to the bouncer outside and thrown back inside.

Oh NO!!! I am like a volleyball being thrown back and forth. In the end, i went in though.. YES!!! that happen again.. Certainly, the violence did not just hapen to me. We were so tired and decided to go back home and you guess what!!! We couldn't go out of the club cuz someone was bashed up outside and the paramedics told the bouncer not to let us out.

He was bleeding so badly that there is a possibily of having a permanent damage in his body. I was told that the bouncers are so violent !! Oh NO!!!! The reporters came in and interview people on the scene. It was a dodgy night!!! Dodgy!! Dodgy!! Dodgy!!

You Guess What!!!

I was having lunch with Matt in Footscray and it was on the NEWS!!!

Until now, I am not too sure whether its pure coincidence or violence!!!

Moral of the story: Clubs and bars are not necessarily a happy place.

Spending my Birthday...

I love travelling..

I simply love travelling and European building..

Just to let you know, Melbourne is the most European place in Australia despite the high Asian population... I simply love the atmophere there...

I have lived in Perth for 1 1/2 years and for sure, I will not spend my 20th birthday in Perth (again) this time and will be goin to Melbourne to spend it... If I decide to spend my 21th somewhere else (Lets say Western Samoa) and decide to graduate next year without taking honours, it means that I will never have the chance to spend my birthday in Perth... So, I decide to spend my birthday in Perth next year and thats for sure...

It is not an easy decision to make as I have to forgo the opportunity to be with my friends in Perth.. Sometimes, I regret making that decision but i have already made up my mind.. Going to be an adult soon and not spending the time with my good friends in Perth is a heartache... At least, having the chance to be with my friends in Melbourne, being in the most European place in Australia and breathing the European air satisfies my heart... I will be going to Canberra afterwards to see the Floriade, one of the best flower gardens in the world...

Despite Canberra being alleged as the most boring and bureaucratic place in Australia, my friend convinced that there'll be alot of things to do there... Like embassy tours with a bike, watching the Australian parliament in session, climbing up the hill to Telstra tower and going to one of the numerous museums convince me enough to spend 3 nights there..

I hope that this will be my best birthday and that I will enjoy the trip very much..

Anyway, i will be going for a day trip to sydney from Canberra... I bet that I am one fo the few people in the world to do so..

What!!! Going for a day trip to Sydney!!!What are you doing!!!

hahahahhaha...

TRUTH ABOUT ME

I want to speak out all my troubles...
but I doubt anyone will listen to me..

HELP ME!!!
I am drowning..

SAVE ME!!!
I am lost..

LISTEN TO ME!!!
I can't speak...

ARRRGHHHHHH!!!!!
FUCK IT!!!
I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT!!!

I thought I am strong... I can handle everything..
in fact, I am really weak..

I say... I don't care..
In fact, I really CARE..

I say... I am smart..
In fact, I can't do anything...

I say... I am a good boy..
In fact, I am actually a really bad boy..

I say... I am really smart at doing something..
In fact, I don't know how to do it...

yes, I have agood future..
In fact, I am feeling empty inside...

yes, I have everything.. (almost)
In fact, I miss something I really important...

yes, I am handsome and cute
In fact, I am just as cute and handsome just like anyone else...

Why am i writing this.. just like someone in the middle of a sinking ship...

nothing spiritual... nothing personal... nothing to do with you..

I bare with THIS PROBLEM for ages... Its only now that I just can't take it...