The Supernatural and Astral Travelling.

buI am not really a fan of new age movements and cults who believes in bewildered claims of the supernatural. But what I want to share now is my experience with another world that happens in my sleep. It is up to you whether you want to believe it or not but this is my real experience in another world. This always happen when I was asleep.

Sometimes, when I was asleep, there is an extremely rapid movement in my body and i felt that I was being lifted up from my body. At that point of time, the place was so dark that i could barely see anything there was once I dreamt of almost falling into the pit of hell and i thought that I was already dead which seems impossible in every sense. Except with the fact that my apartment went tumbling down or I got poisoned without knowing that I am already dead. It was scary isnt it.. Sometimes, i feel like I am going to heaven with the angels welcoming me. I could even hear sonds whcih scares me alot.

However, the most amazing part is that you are actually given a choice whether you want to wake up at tha point of time. Sometimes, I consciously think that I should get out of this world by waking up but it is hard to do so. It was usually until I manage to go extremely near the place and woke up. This could be due to the fact that the soul is connected with the body when you are still alive. This is what i read from some stories about astral travelling, i am not sure if it could be verified.

But whenever I woke up from the recurring dreams, i always feel fresh and seems to be free from grudges. Cuz in normal dreams, you would not feel as fresh as this. its soo amazing isnt it!! Some people may say that I am actually dissturbed by the devil but i don't think so. To me, its just my wonderful experience in the supernatural world!!

Why am I so interested in the Philippines???

Once, I dreamt of my sister telling my mom that we are going to the Philippines a year ago..Thats the time i start to get interested in the country located north of country. I am such a nerd about the Philippines that of buying the lonely planet guide book and searching friendster accounts of Filipinos and learn about their culture. Nobody similar realise how similar Indonesia and the Philippines are.

I know more about the city names of Filipino cities that the average Indonesian do. For example, if you ask any Indonesian or Australian where Baguio or Zamboanga is. They probably wouldnt heard of that place before. but the funny thing is, Both Indonesians and Filipinos love to use friendster very much. I really can't understand why and all of them have the same stupid narcissistic photos of themselves with their camera phone, its just so stereotypical Indonesian and Filipinos. But the good thing is, I sometimes find that Indonesian have better cameras. haha. it makes me want to laugh.

Learning about the Filipino culture also makes me appreciate my country even more. Such as the hiya concept, which roughly means saving face. i used to think that indonesians have a compulsive disorder in trying to save their face and I really hate that as they only can say 'Ngak enak' when theres a problem. But because of this, I realise that we are not alone, theres another culure who are also like that.

Alright, another similaities are the way the Chinese alter the name to sound local. For example, there are two versions of my surname, Ong, in both countries. In Indonesia, to make it sound local, some of the names inclue Ongko. On the other hand, It would be called Ongpin in the Philippines. Besides that. theres even an Ongpin road in Manila. haha..

Well thats my share about how similar we are and that makes me very interested in the Philippines. So, Don't be surprised why someone like me would ever wanna visit that country!! i am just very very interested!!!

Cliques are Bad!!

I hate cliques!!!
And i never have one in my life...
Can't understand why??
Well, the main problem is that they are just a bunch of exclusive people who are only talking among themselves and no to anyone else. But the worst thing, If you wanna join a clique or a group, you should conform to their believes or you could get kicked out and they will kiss your ass goodbye!!!

I have many bad experiences with them and I hate people who loves to clique...T Ihey are simply unfriendly and I can't tolerate this kind of behaviour... Yes!! I am sometime bullied with the same group of people whenI was young.. and yes!! I hate it!! That cold be the reason why I feel like quitting INDOSS cuz simply they are ran by an unknowingly bunch of clique which dominates everything and leaves no room for discussion among other members..

In fact, I hve loads of good friends and they never clique... In fact, all my very good friends are never good friends wih each other... Thats how Cliqueless I am!!!

Whats Wrong With ME!!!

My life have not been good these days. In reviewing myself for the past few months, I have been doing alot of useless things on the internet which practically didn't change my life at all. I just dn't know how to have a headstart for my studies. It may sound ridiculous to you guys but i am still on a holiday mood for the past few months. How Lazy I am, Can you guys imagine that!!

Not the typical UWA student, studying used to be pastime but now is a heavy blunder for me. I just hate studying these days, but who doesnt anyway, at least you guys still do abot of revision but i have not beeen doing so since the start of the semester and my studies are falling behind. Especially now when all my projects are piling up like mad!! I was so infuriated by that and that bloody EBS where i have to hand it work every week. Come on, can you make my life easier!! But people will always say, Life is hard!!! thats the only thing that people can say but thats fact. whats more irritating is that it is the only thing that they can say... hihi.. sounds bad...

Look, I have 2 essays to hand in top weeks time, its really driving me mad!! Please God!!! Can you don't let me go down like this. Please eliminate all the lack of discipline and indifference that i currently have. I am suffering from those diseases now. By the way, i feel much better after saying this and GOD!! Please help me pass my EBS!!

For all i know, since I am able to take the unites that I like... I would be able to do much better next year!! and yoohoo... My goal for next year... NO MORE MATH!!! Thats my goal.. And God, Thanks for the miracle that you gave me by giving my Accounting unit a pass... but please God!!

OK!! Now, i don't have to be proud of being the lazy asshole again.. From now on, i am going to work hard in everything I do.. Here's my plan for next week. One hour of EBS everyday, One Chapter of management everyday, Two Chapter of Macros everyday, finish evry tute questions and attend consultations for ITL!!!

thats it... My vision of success came back again and would like to thank God for that... By the way, My blog is always my best friend in this earth... But God is my best friend in both the earth and the terrestrial world...

Judging a Strange Person...

There's a girl in a church that people are always making fun of. I do have to admit that she is really strange and she got bullied quite badly by the members. She loves to do strange stuff like dancing randomly in front of everyone and too confident with guys which annoys people significantly. I am not here to insult or judge anyone but to let people understand why people can become so strange.


The reason why I am not as judgemental like everyone else because i used to be a very odd boy in the past especially when I was in Indonesia. At that point of time, I was very stressed out becauuse of new environmet and things like that. Not many people like me because i actually have a bad attitude problem when i was studying in Jakarta. I slammed the door loudly for nothing without showing any expression of anger and I clenched my teeth in the middle of a class. I was indeed a strange person with very strange habits and people really hate me for that. Then, i tried to act like a bloody fag which caused the guys not to go near me. I am also not conforming to the culture and wishes of my friends, so i was very isolated at that point of time and kept very quiet all the time.

But the main point is, many people think that I am strange while I think of it as perfectly normal and being myself. It is just a different perception of an attitude. Sometimes, I hate myself for being that way. It takes time for peole to realise that there is smething wrong with the behaviour. For example, it was only until recently that i suddenly stop banging the door in class without realising it. People will stop doing strange things when they are more mature. So, I do believe that the girl from the church could change ne day. So, Its really important for us not to judge them but instead to let them discover their mistakes as the more people make fun of them , the more mistakes they would make due to the negative inputs that they get.

Negative inputs or remarks would not change people, instead it would destroy them even more. So please stop tesing people who are strange. I know how it feels like to be one, it really hurts, its just that you don't realise it.

My Confession

Alot of people don't believe in love in first sight... Despite of what people say about it, I am a strong believer in it... They say that love needs a very long and arduous process of continuous selection and communication... Well, enough of what people think about it... Let me tell you my point of view... Yeah, first impression is the most lasting impression...

Theres this cute gal from Uniprep, my foundation school in Jakarta, when i saw her the first time, I suddenly fell in love with her...I am not sure why?? I am in the april intake but she is in the June intake, we are not in the same class... ='( Lets call her by the initial, M. You may not argue that it is just a crush... But if it is merely a crush, i won't be thinking of her until now... It has been months since the last time i saw... I really miss her alot... Seriously... The only thing that I want is to see her again...

I always wanna get to know her better... Whenever, I got the opportunity to do so, I was trembling so hard that i could barely talk especially when she was with her friends... I was so afraid that the smartest thing (actually its stupid) to do is to ignore her and only say hi to her when she is alone... Furthermore, theres a guy who is trying really hard to get to close with her and but they r just too shy to say the truth... hahaha... So, i back off and stay out of their way...

But I can feel theres this strange feeling... I really think that she likes me... I dunno is she still likes me now... It just feels different when i see her... i dunno why??

I am not sure whether I will have the chance to meet her to say I LOVE U... Only time will tell... I really wanna make her the luckiest woman in Indonesia, thats my dream.... I really thank God that i am able to track her friendster account and MSN... At least i still have a bit of chance to do so... If I succeed, i will be the luckiest man of earth and never to regret again for my decision to study in Jakarta for a year...

If you know who u r...

I wanna say

I LOVE U!!!!

Spending my birthday....

I was quite in a dilemma on where to spend my birthday... There are two choices that i have... Having a gathering n the city with most of my friends or inside the church camp in Yanchep...It was actually a tough decision to consider... In fact, it took me weeks to think about it...

But in the end, I chose to go to Yanchep instead... Cuz, I am in a dire need to get out of the Perth metropolitan area... I need to go somewhere totally different and far from the city... Basically to find the real Australia that i have been looking for all my life... Besides, there are only one sermon in the camp which is a good thing for me... hihi.... The games have loads of games and we practically go there just to have fun... I saw some of the pictures and it looks really nice... and yeah... theres a beach there...yahoo!!! I can swim and enjoy the natural surroundings...

TIME TO GET WET!!!

Or should i smuggle some beer for me to get pissed!!! hihihihi
cuz there willl definitely be no beer provided...
hahahahaha...
juz kidding...

Can we blame God!!!

I recently lost my bike and it gave me a big blow on my head... I cried to my mom when i told her that i lad lost my bike... I am tempted to think that God is the one to blame?? But when I looked back, wait a minute, it couldnt be God!!

Despite our tendecy to say : JESUS CHRIST!!!

It is not a very sensible word to say as how could God do evil things... its totally illogical to me... Remember, God is the God of love, protection and he is against evil vices such as stealing.... No matter what excuses you gave... that couldn't be God... There's simply no way that he could do such things... thats totally ridiculous and impossible!!!

the holy spirit didn't move people to do evil things such as stealing or murdering... Instead, with the holy spirit in you... You are able to do many great things that many peope can't... For example, serving the lord and helping other people...

its not right... Its actually the devil's attempt so that you could doubt God by telling you that its is God's fault after he actually caused you those misfortunes... He hates you and wants you to get you into trouble and most importantly to get you out of God's way and his directions...

So, its not God who caused you misfortunes... thus, we should never condemn god by using his name in vain... i just hope that this will be a blessing to you to help you understand that blaming God is simply not right in a logical manner... God Bless You!!!

Stefan

Good Bye Singapore!!!

My house in Singapore is going to be sold soon... I was so sad when i heard the news... In fact, i cried when i heard about that... I just can't believe the house that i had occupied for my teenage years is going away... Its only now that i am able to accept that fact... So Why my dad have to sell the house??

It's all because of money... Well partially because of money.. Not that we are actually lacking of money.. its all because of the property boom in Singapore...It is currently the time when the price of houses soar up the sky to unimaginable height.... Apparently, its choking people to death... Many young proffesionals arent able to buy new homes.. I guess that they have to wait ten years or more to buy one... thats so sad isnt it.. even renting a house is not cheap either... a small HDB apartment would cost them at least $1000+ a month...

And yeah.. Big huge corporations are buying aways old houses or condominiums to feed their insatiable hunger for property development and most importantly money... That could be the reason why houses are so expensive now... expensive to the point that my dad have to resort to selling his house...

Enough digress... at first, i thought that i gonna lose all my close friends... but wait a minute, arent these people going to overseas and study... and yeah.. its the same things... so i dun really care... i am actually sick of the Singaporean kiasu lifestyle... where life is just too fast to be true... people having a vicious cycle of suffering.... for instance, when they are young, their crazy parents cram them with countless of tuitions... and when its time for them to work, they have to work til late... i am glad that i am out of that vicious cycle...

so now.. i dun really care whether the house is going to be sold or not... so good bye to my Singaporean lifestyle...welcome to my new life...

reasons not to hate posers...

Poser is derived from the french word poseur which means that a person who pretends to be what he or she is not... just in case you don't know what it means and labelling them without second thoughts especially for kids below 16... labelling people as a poser is really easy but identifying real posers are not easy cuz almost everyone in the subcultural scenes are posers... the only exceptions are those who are the artist themselves or those whose start the fashion trend.. even famous bands could be posers in some sense...

Many people became posers just because they need acceptence and they need friends... All they need is you as a friend!!! Plase don't condemn these people alright... Instead, approach them and really talk to them.. i bet that they wold love to do so and ask them about why they become posers... encourage them not to do so and tell them to be who they are.. thats what friends are all about... perhaps you could get the greatest treasure in your life which are best friends...

there are other posers who are trying to be trendy... but not really fashionable... well, you can't jude these people because its our human nature to wanna be fashionalbe... its natural.. if you aare a punk but if u hate those 'posers' so much... ask yourself why you are behaving and dressing that way... are you also following people who dresses like you, wanna look fashionable, follow their suggested (sometimes terrifying) behaviour and claiming those things as being yourself... if you are, then dun hate these people... chances are.. they also have the same mindset as you...

the other type of posers are usually kids (below 13) who always follow their friends and be like their friends... the reason being that these kids don't really have a developed mindset and still trying to follow them... you can excuse these people... they are still kids after all... just tell them whats right or wrong... but don't condemn them!!!

i am not an emo, i dun dress like one and a self-proclaimed fashion police... but i actually love emo fashion and hairstyle... i personally their they are cool despite what people say... its just that i am not slim enough to dress like one... and dun call me a poser... its just what i like...

However, some exceptions applies... they are those selfish and corrupted people who tries to be popular and hang out with all the popular kids and be real posers.. and start dressing like them and their styles... You can give them an smack in their face for abandoning you and tell them to FUCK OFF!!! They are the worst posers ever... if you are their friends... don't be angry... they just lose their greatest treasure which is you... it means that your so-called friend is not your friend...

but no matter what, labelling people posers is very childish!!!

Fashionalbe you!!!

For guys... i think wearing brown checkered polo shirt and black pants is a bad idea for you... wear it with a light-colour blue or a slightly darker jeans... i think it would look nice on you... but anyway... i dun like brown checkerd polos... i saw it once before and its so ugly... and dun wear black with brown... especially if its dark brown... it once looks so horrendous and it did made me promise me not to ever wear it again... please dun wear it alrite...

And Guys, don't show off your boxers please especillialy it its pink and full of colours *PUKE*... its one of the worst fashion disaster ever... i dun think gals would be turned on just by seeing your boxers!! i think gals would rather move away form you... Wear something more fashionable but eligible if you wanna be a gal-magnet... not by showing off your underwear... and yeah.. dun put your pants soooo low and again... its ugly!! You could prove me wrong but its just yucky alrite... be a good boy ok!!

For gals... if you are wearing a mini-skirt.. please dun ever wear a very big jacket thats way beyond your size... you should wear a jacket that suits your body size... it just looks disproportionate and unbalanced.. especially if your body is so small and thin...
and gals... how about that big furry boots... geez... better think what to wear before you wear once or it will look really ugly.. seriously.. i cant think of a matching pants or skirt with that furry boots... but for sure... dun wear leggings with it... its ugly!!!

Remember... let me warn you... i am watching over you... dun ever put a photo with a bad dress in firendster or mypace.. i really dun hesitate to be very bitchy and put insulting comments... you can wear something normal and still looks good!! remember... i am doing this for your own good!!!

Kicked out!!!

Oh Geez... I can't believe that I got kicked out of my house today but not really in a literal sense... Its just that the aunty told me that she did not want me in the house anymore and told me to find a house by next sem... she told me that she doesnt wanna go into the homestay business anymore.. She got pretty sick and tired of it..

But i am actually not too sure about the credibility of her argument... Cuz i sometimes found that she lies at times... Telling me that there will be no more open house a few times and only recently that she keeps her promise and i actually want my ex-housemate's room abd did by best to clean my room but i didnt get it... Geeez... It makes me thik that tidying up my room is a pure waste of time...

yeah.. Perhaps i got kicked out of the house for some other reasons.. i dunno.. maybe grudging my for my past misdeeds which didnt happen now... well. i dunno.. now the exams are coming and i still have to find for a new home... oh now!!Well... thats all for today.. byezzz

My stupid past...

As most CCSS people should know... There used to be a high profile case regarding me and this gal you should know who?? When i think back, I can't believe that we are all sooo childish... I really feel like laughing at myself and its's really stupid...

yeah, I bet you won't believe this... I asked her to be my girlfriend one day but in the end i took back my word... You may ask me why?? Cuz i feel so insecure but i really loved her that time.. But i think that it's really stupid... something that doesn't make sense... Normal people like you won't do such a thing... haha...

Yeah, i made her cry at least three times... i once told her not to call me too much and she cried and really got a big fight on the phone... and Wow... i can't believe i am fighting with a gal over da phone... ARRRGHHHH!!!

My relationship is good.. i never visit her when she was doing her prefect duty... what a bad boy i am...

When my relationship with her was super bad.. her friend told me to buy chocolates for her for Valentine's Day cuz she wanted me to do so and i foolishly did... I wrap the merci chocolate on a piece of wraping paper and gave it to her the next day... When i saw her, i quicky gave it to her and her face was kinda furious... i dunno y?? When i asked her at night... she told me why i gave her chocolates... OMG!!! I can't believe that i am fooled... Oh geez... hahahahahahahaha!!!!

Gals, i know you will hate me for writing this...that's why perhaps because of that, maybe she cursed me because of these things... i am doomed not having a g/f for years... not even a b/f... if i found one, the gals are usually sooo below standard... not that i m trying to insult... i juz can't get the gal that i want... they r either so demanding, bad fashion, unkemp hair and very jealous... juz can't take it... And i really got a bad blind date once...

geez.. exams are in two days time and i m writing something stupid like this... can't believe that i am wasting my time... but if that is the situation now... i definitely won't be that foolish..

Narcissist Code of Conduct...

I have seen many so-called 'narcissist' in Indonesia.. i still discover that some peopl eworte that they are a narcissist in their friendster profile... but i was just wondering if they are a real narcissist or not... As a 'narcissist', i really find it more of my own disease rather than a trend... Regularly going to the toilet to look at my self is almost involuntary and taking picture of myself on the street is a norm.. thats the reason why i wanna write some of the code of conducts of being a narcissit which distinguish trend-followers and the 'real' ones...

Narcissist

1) They should love themselves.. thats the whole point of being a narcissist...

2) Totally self-adoring and self-praising... all without shame...

3) Going to the toilet and look at yourself involuntarily...

4) Taking pictures of themselves everywhere...

5) having a camera phone is a neccesity... however, you could be a narcissit without one...

6) very confident when doing certain things like acting funny in front of the whole class...

If you have these factors, that does not mean you are a narcissist

1) Cute poses in front of the camera

2) writing.like.this Or LiKE thIs

3) Telling everyone that you are one... it involves your own emotion and nature...

4) Act adorable and cute while not being yourself...

5) Being fashionable...

Warnings

1) Guys... Please don't kiss the camera... It looks ugly... if a girl or perhaps boy is beside you.. kiss him/her instead... it looks so ugly if you guys do it...

In the limbo...

My life is now in a limbo without any direction and purpose... When i decided to take commerce, i thought that i am talented in that field as my dad suggest.. but it is far from what i expected.. I now fell into a bottlomless abyss... I don't know what to do... when i considered taking commerce, i actually thought that i can make friend with accounting... my least favourite subject... i thought everything could be just fine...

But i realised that i was very idealistic.. nothing i never fine... problems faced me and now i m in a limbo... Threading towards an unknown direction... i aslo realised that i made a big mistake when i was accidentally put inside a marketing research class when i was doing my asian business assigment... Mind you... its the worst class ever... just like my accounting workshop classes... Its soo boring and they are learning something irrelevant to marketing such as tables and some mathematical crap... and i wanna take marketing as a major next year... but hell no.. how could this be...

Ok lets assume that my university education is a tunnel... At first, the tunnel was lit with bright colours and there was full of hapiness... I feel really proud to be going inside the top uni in WA... As you go along the road.. the tunnel get dim and you started to get confused... the concrete tunnels was soon over and you start to thread toward a pool of water... all you have to do is to swim accross the pool... when swimming... you have to bear with the number of zombies trying to pull you down but i somehow managed to swim accross... which are in this case.. ASSIGMENTS!!

Being exhausted, i barely have the chance to walk briskly and there are many distractions along the way and a subject which was still haunting me until now... which are in this case.. MSN and my dear laptop.. cant blame them though... now, I am at the point of no return... however, i a given 2 choices now, either to go through the harsh and demanding tunnel or give up and enter another tunnel??

Apparently, i am now so confused because i cant cope with my accounting class and pass or fail... i dun wanna take it again... i really dont know anything about accounting now... and sadly, its a prerequisite to get a commerce degree... Now, i dont know where to go?? Clock is ticking and i soon have to make the decisiom...

Welcome again..

Phew!! I t has been such a long since the last time i used this blog.. Finally, i am able to use it again.. Now, you can view my blog here or in my friendster blog.. Both ways should be fine and dun forget to put any comments... First of all, My name is Stefan and was borned in Jakarta and i am currently enrolled in the university of Western Australia...This blog would not only feature my daily life but about other issues that i would like to address... thanks for reading and good nitezzz